Late Night Musings

20130524_222113-001I’m in a new Facebook Group with some wonderful new friends with an illness in common: bipolar disorder. I was up late tonight and posted in the group trying to get to know everyone. I meant to say hi and felt so comfortable I spilled it.

Upon reflection I realized my message was important to share with you so here it is, with a few changes:

“Up late tonight, love to blog at this hour, but thought I would post and get to know you all better. Please talk, friend me, I really would like to know you all. I am up late because I’m trying Trazadone again for sleep and we forgot about how bad the headaches can be for me. I’ve been getting them every a.m. so skipping it every other day, which is not helping the sleep issue. Tonight the headache hit before I fell asleep so voila! here I am.

I hope you all take a crack at reading my online paper ‘cuz it has my bio and then I don’t have to type it again lol! Seriously it’s something I’m doing to get the word out in addition to my blog to break down communication barriers about mental disorders, just as some of you are. I hope you check it out: livingabovethemadness.org on Twitter.

If any of you want a post in it, please let me know. It’s a great feeling to reach a larger audience. How large? Large. I have 20,000 followers on Twitter and it reaches them and their followers if RT’d by anyone. I am in a Social Media Group that get a copy with a potential reach of approximately 1/4 million on Twitter. With RTs hard to say. Facebook, my account alone reaches 1500 people. Shared by friends exponentially multiplies it. G+ 3400 people have me in their circles. I post to public and to all my circles. I am saying all this not to brag but to answer a question on distribution of the posts in the paper and also to show the reach we can get by putting our blogs together into one paper. They you share with all of the people you are connected too and it grows out that way too. Plus this is a new paper. I only have a few subscribers. As people subscribe, they also share. Soon it’s getting a million plus viewership and beyond. A million people hearing how to stop the Epidemic of Suicide in our country. A million people beginning to understand and have compassion, not fear for what people with mental illness face. Understanding breeds awareness and awareness brings change.

Well, I guess I’m writing a blog post. Thanks for listening and I hope you’ll catch the paper someday. Love and blessings, Libby”

An addendum to Late Night Musings: I don’t usually give out the names of medications. I did last night. I called the on call psychiatrist last night because I was panicked I wasn’t sleeping well. My husband told me after the call, I had been sleeping better than I realized. She didn’t think I sounded manic, rather quite tired. I was very anxious. Nonetheless, I was quite certain I was hypo manic and I know myself better than a doctor who has spoken with me once. She admitted my fears were well founded. Trazadone, often prescribed for sleep, is also an antidepressant. And even in the small dose I was taking could push the patient into mania. That’s what I was feeling the beginnings of. It also can cause headaches. Another medicine crossed off my list.

I add this addendum and bring up this medicine, not to turn people off to this medication, but to illustrate the face that it is so important to be in tune with what is happening inside of you when you have a mental disorder. Stay tuned in and ask for help when things start to go out of balance. Don’t wait until they’re really bad. Just a piece of advice and a warning sign shared for those who know and love someone like me, or are someone like me. Blessings and love. Enjoy your day, knowing there are people who can help and will.

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4 thoughts on “Late Night Musings

  1. As a Christian (former pastor) with Bipolar, I appreciate your attempt to integrate spiritual and psychological issues. I am also impressed by your success in the realm of social media.

    I write a great deal about faith, literature, and mental health on my blog.

    I am doing a series of posts on Sylvia Plath, a poet who struggled with despair yet produced beautiful poems and stories. My most recent reflection is on her emotional perspective. It is here –

    http://writingforfoodinindy.wordpress.com/2013/05/26/ricocheting-madly-in-between-the-emotional-perspective-of-a-young-sylvia-plath/

    Iā€™d love for you to come by and join the conversation.

    Keep up the good blogging.

    • I would love to be a part of the conversation and will stop by! Thanks for the affirming wonderful things you said about my blog, faith and social media career. I have been blessed by God in so many ways in my life, for I know it is Him I own any success to. And the incredible persevering spirit He gave me. Some might call it a stubborn streak!

      That is wonderful that you are writing about your faith, literature and mental health on your blog. I had a regional blog picking up my posts for a while, but the editor didn’t like the way I was integrating my faith. Sorry, but I don’t get through the day without God, can’t get through too many blog posts without Him either! Thanks for stopping by. I know we’ll be getting to know each other better. I love Sylvia Plath, though a sad ending to her story.

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